All over the place

I'm feeling scattered today. Though we didn't do much this weekend (not much constructive anyway), I find that today I'm very tired, and I'm struggling to get through the day. Evan didn't have therapy and the weather was crap, so I think that made things drag more than usual.

Last night Mike's parents stopped by on their way home from visiting his sister in Rochester. They weren't here too long, so we had time in the evening to give Ev a haircut before bed. Since I've been buzzing his hair, I try to do it monthly so it doesn't get too long and hard to cut. But after last night I have to wonder if I'll ever do it again. He was awful. He usually sits in the chair and cries while Mike sits next to him and holds his hand or head as need be. But last night he thrashed, he screamed, he curled up and made it almost impossible to cut his hair. Something that should have taken 5 minutes took well over half an hour. Ev's getting too big for us to hold down, and I don't know what we're going to do about it. I'm fairly certain he would do no better at a barber, so we're really stuck now.

I'm feeling really big now. On the days I don't have to go anywhere, I pretty much just wear some stretch pants and one of Mike's t-shirts, because I only have a few things that fit comfortably anymore. I feel like a total slob and I hate it. I wish I could do something to make myself feel prettier, but at this point I don't even know what would help.

Evan is climbing up the office chair now, so I'll cut this short. I'm hoping things look rosier tomorrow anyway.