Shackled

Today our roof is getting replaced. So far that has consisted of a lot of banging around as the guys tear off our old shingles and throw them over the side of the house. Very entertaining. I'm just waiting for a foot to come through the ceiling. I know Ev is going to dig this once he gets home from school though. I have a feeling I won't be able to tear him away from the window (or get him into the house once he gets off the bus).

But here's the problem. Today's the first nice, sunny day we've had in a while, and I would like to take Ev outside. We've both missed the fresh air and the sunshine. Of course, we can't play in our yard as we'd be hit by flying debris. And it will probably be this way for the next few days as nails and shingles are littered all over the place.

I would take Ev to the park, but that would mean we'd have to go to the park. And honestly, I no longer have the energy for that. I can't walk far or fast, and I certainly can't chase Ev through open fields and across playgrounds. I'm big and unwieldy, and it's really starting to limit my activities. I feel so badly because I don't want Ev to miss out on anything fun, but I know my limits and I don't want to push it.

Last night I almost started crying (hormones) as I tried to explain to Mike how I feel right now. He was teasing me a little, nothing mean, but I got all bent out of shape. For as much as I wanted to make it full term with this baby, I'm finding this part incredibly hard. I can't believe how much I just hurt all the time. My hands are so swollen in the morning that I can't even flex my fingers. And forgive me for being blunt, but my crotch is killing me. I feel like I'm walking with a bowling ball between my thighs. My back aches, and walking has become slow and awkward. I'm not the most fun to take on an outing, that's for sure.

What's a girl to do? I guess we could try a family trip to the park when Mike gets home from work, but that leaves me with a whole afternoon to fill. We'll just have to hold on for the next five hours.