Scattered

I'm scattered today, and so will this entry be. Today, when Ev got home from school, he went in the downstairs bathroom to pee. It was about a half an hour later when I went in there and discovered that he had peed not in the toilet, but up the wall and on the floor, soaking even the toilet paper on the roll. Talent. I asked him why he did it, but he said he didn't know. I took away computer for the day. Grady's new thing is that he has to sleep with a blanket over his face. He loves it. I hate it, because it's giving me SIDS anxiety. I have to keep moving the blanket and staring at him to make sure he's still breathing. But he won't sleep without it, so I guess I'll have to adjust. Is it wrong to listen to Nine Inch Nails with your kids in the car? Because I was the other day--"Down In It", specifically. There are no swears in the lyrics that I can think of. I figured it was okay. When I listen to that song (or any music from that time, really), I'm 17 again and driving around without a care in the world except finishing my English paper on time and what I'm going to do Friday night. Some days it helps to feel like Jenny for a few minutes instead of just Mommy. I'm washing all of the 3/6 month clothes I could find for fall today. Grady finally will have something to wear. I was going through all the bins this morning while Ev was at school, and it's looking like we won't have to buy too much for G until he gets into the bigger sizes. That's when Ev started wearing clothes out rather than outgrowing them. Speaking of G, now he screams. The blanket has come off of the face. Time for me to fly.